Sense Sonnet - Steamer

Curious

For years, I belonged to the church,
But never really felt a part.
So after a lot of soul search,
I felt it was time to depart.
I didn't want them hounding me,
So I gave the pastor a call,
Pretending to be family,
And said I had died from a fall.
Though I said I'd been cremated,
The church was having a service.
My attendance generated
Some weird looks, which made me nervous.

I guess I came because of doubt,
How many people would turn out.